The 100 Day Rejection Challenge: The best kind of therapy: Rejection

Friday, March 29, 2013

The best kind of therapy: Rejection

Meaningless. There's no point. Life is pointless. Why do I keep on going on and on when there is no fucking purpose.

I wanted my head to shut up. But it didn't, it simply got louder.

Why are you still living? You find no pleasure in life! Everything and everyone is lame as hell anyways.

I turned up the volume of my ipod, trying to drown my head out with Nate Reuss' voice (I'd turn gay for this man's voice).

When you're sinking like a stone, CARRY - Oh shutup Nate, you are fucking cheesy as hell.

Not even Nate's sexy voice could save me from the trackless train of thought running thorough my head.

It was at that point suicidal thoughts start to creep in. The first time ever I legitly wanted to kill myself. I thought of my parents, the countless amount of hours they've spent dedicating their life to me. My life flashed before me. Tears; real tears started to come out of my eyes.

I can't just leave the world like this, it's fucking pathetic.

I was a smart kid with aspirations to make a mark on this world. I wanted to be a scientist, an author, a philothropist. But four years of highschool had left me a shell of a young man: misunderstood, lonely, insecure, purposeless and out of touch with reality. Then, a year and a half of university bunched all those things together, and managed to put me on medication for depression. I really don't want to tread over the meaningless details of how or the pointless analysis of why. I used to. But not anymore.

Shit happens in life. With the help of 5mgs a day of Cirpalex and 30 minutes a day of light therapy, I learned to suck it and man up. Now it's time for me to tackle some real issues.

I know I had some holes in my personality I must fill up. I always lacked an aura of confidence in many social situations, and the fear of rejection often made me an anxious unassertive little bitch. Those are probably traits I have to eliminate right away in order for me to have a life, nevermind being successful.

And there's no better way to do it than this

http://rejectiontherapy.com/
Rejection Therapy

And this new Terry, freshly out of a depression, can't wait to do this.

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Rejection Challenge

I first got the idea of Rejection Challenge from a friend in my improv club. He told me how several people he knew are doing this thing for the summer to increase social confidence. I thought it was a sick idea and did some research and found this website.

http://www.rejectiontherapy.com/

This game is originally invented by a guy named Jason Camely, an entrepreneur . It turns out that a lot of people are doing this thing in order to overcome their fear of social rejection and get out of their comfort zone. The idea caught on especially after a guy named Jia Jiang videotaped what he did and one of his videos went viral.

If you think this is a pretty cool thing to do, check it out! You can either talk to me, Jason or Jia. We are all open for questions and discussions!

Please note: Rejection Challenge is NOT a therapeutic way to treat Major Depressive Disorder. If you are currently suffering from depression or suspect that you are, please don’t mistake this as some sort of medical treatment! I am only using Rejection Challenge as a medium to fundraise for and promote depression awareness! It’s the reason why I didn’t use the name “Rejection Therapy”.

Depression Awareness

What is Clinical Depression?

Major Depressive Disorder is about to become the 2^nd most prevalent health condition in North America. It is by far the most prevalent psychological disorder. Yet, it is poorly understood and the patients are highly stigmatized. The objective of this campaign is to raise awareness and understanding regarding depression and remove the stigma, on top of fundraising for the non profit organization (TWLOHA) battling for the same cause.

If you are currently suffering from Major Depressive Disorder, please do not hesitate to talk to your loved ones. Understand that your family and friends probably still love and care about you, even though they might not get what you are going through. Do seek professional medical help and therapy. By simply talking your therapists

If you have a loved one suffering or possibly suffering from depression, please do not hesitate from reaching out to them. While someone in a depression may often isolate them from social contact, people are actually what they needed the most. Be more patient and understanding because they are suffering a medical symptom that prevents them from being their true selves.

Whether you are suffering from depression, have loved ones suffering from it, or even just simply wanting to learn more, you can help you and others by simply educating yourself and talk about depression! The more people are willing to openly discuss a certain issue, the quicker it will be brought to attention and resolved. The biggest reason why depression is badly understood and poorly treated is the fact that nobody is willing to talk about it.

I am neither a professional nor an expert on Major Depressive Disorder, I simply want to raise awareness and open the channel of communication!